Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Taking a Break From All Your Worries

I'm trying to consume healthier sweets
Now that it's Spring Break, I have some time to catch up on things.

A couple weeks ago, I went to Student Health Services to have my blood glucose checked. After the whole Dunkin' Donuts fiasco I was worried about my health. The doctor there recommended that I lose at least 20 pounds, and try to eat healthier, of course. My test results were emailed to me a few days later and reported that, while I wasn't officially diabetic, my blood glucose level was high enough to be considered "pre-diabetic", a term which means I'm basically screwed if I don't do something about my health soon. I guess it is better to know than be in the dark. Since I got the results, I've been trying to cut back on sweets, and eat more vegetables. I still eat sweets 2-3 days a week, but that's better than the 5-6 days a week I was doing prior to going to the doctor. Since the blood test is able to detect glucose levels for a three month period, I'll try to go back for another glucose test in the fall to see if things have improved.

During the two weeks prior to Spring Break, all of my courses held their mid-term exams. I managed to make a 100 (A+) in Behavioral Research, and B- in Philosophy of Science. I don't know, yet, what I made in Modern American History or Western Lit, but I feel pretty confident that I made at least a B+ on each of the exams.

Speaking of Western Lit, the Sexy Scot implied during class a few weeks ago that she is a lesbian. I don't have any problems with gays or lesbians, but I still felt sad when I heard the implication. Why did I feel sad? Well, because my professor clearly won't be having sex with me since she is in a relationship with another woman. It has nothing to do with me being fat, old, broke, or one of her students! No, potential lesbianism is apparently too strong a piece of evidence for even my incredibly strong power of self-delusion to set aside!

Actually, I think the whole thing with the professor ties in with another larger narrative concept for me this semester, namely alienation. While I wouldn't go so far as to say I've been depressed this semester, I have certainly felt more alone than I have in a while. Several of my friendships currently seem to be based in a sort of mutual annoyance, where they annoy me, I annoy them, we get tired of each other for awhile, then go back to annoying each other for awhile longer. As luck would have it, all of my friends are taking a break from me at the same time. I have tried to reach out to other acquaintances through social networks like Facebook. I even started a Twitter account so that I could follow along with the lives of other people online, as though watching other people's conversations would somehow be as satisfying socially as watching porn is satisfying sexually. From my experience, porn seems the more satisfying of the two.

As a result of the communication study that I am running for the Good Doctor, I even started up a Skype account in the hopes that someone would actually want to video chat with me. However, all of this reaching out through technology has shown me that A) I know very few people, B) most of those people don't use Twitter or Skype, and C) the few who do apparently have nothing to say to me. Of course, there are also those people who are mere acquaintances whom I really don't want to talk to about anything beyond just keeping tabs on their lives.

I guess what I'm getting at is that having shallow connections with large numbers of people isn't particularly useful to me as much as having deeper connections with a small number of people. This scenario only breaks down when that small number of people have more interesting things to do than keep me company. Hence, why I spend so much time keeping up with politics, science, and technology.

Oh well... I suppose I should chalk it up to so-called "first-world problems" and be thankful I'm not starving or homeless at the moment.

Have fun and keep living life... Or Some Approximation Thereof.

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